Take life as it comes

"Take Life as it comes" - a phrase easily said than followed.

 

I am sure everyone has heard this phrase from someone at some point of their life.. I also say it many times and try to convince my self at difficult situations. But I was just wondering how difficult it is to accept life as it is... and the difficulty arises all because of thoughts and pre-conceived ideas in our MIND. We have expectations in every sphere of life.. Even as humans, we expect a lot from GOD and when something happens beyond our expectations, we feel betrayed and depressed.

 

I don't know how GOD has created us, humans... we have such a complex body and mind. The learned people say one should be able to control the mind but it is so difficult for a normal person.

 

I have taken some decisions in life with the course of time and many of them were left on time. Like "Jo hoga dekha jayega types..". No, I don't think about such decisions again once I decide but then sometimes I feel and wonder... am I strong enough to face whatever happens in future?

Sometimes I feel I am just too strong to think in this manner and decide something like this... but deep inside my heart I know how weak I am, how heart-broken I will be and I am when things go otherwise my expectations and I don't let anyone except myself know this fact ever...

I have never seen GOD like any other normal human.. but still I feel I have some strong force with me always which keeps me going. Hope in future also, this unknown force keeps me going until my last breath.

 

 

After a long time

After a long time, somehow I thought about this blog and automatically I started writing a post.. as if there is lot inside me which now needs to come out and I want to b free inside...

Life has changed so much and I have changed even more with the course of time.. and to mention not for good but for bad..... although I know each and every factor which has gradually, sub-consciously changed me.....I feel sad for myself...

My patience level has gone down drastically.... I am just not able to stand anything which is wrong in my eyes....especially when Pranshi is affected because of those things... I knew somewhere in my heart I like everything to be just the way it should be..... but now I realise this is becoming a big problem for me...

I always used to say I don't like double faced people....People who change their statements/ view point on any matter according to the situation without considering what is correct and what is wrong... everyone is selfish in this world... even I am to an extent... but atleast I don't think I will start proving wrong things right in any situation.....

I fail to handle these situations... and then the end result is no one understands me and I earn a bad name that I am very short tempered and have no patience at all.... Since childhood I had the strength of ignoring other's bad deeds but never forgetting mine... I always used to introspect so much that where I went wrong... but now everything has changed .. repeatedly same series of scenes happen and am not able to control myself... Why did I change so much? I don't understand ... why cant I be the same Nidhi Mehra, who had lots of patience and was always a peace-maker... I feel sad and bad for my own self.... if I will continue to destroy my own self in this way.... how will I take care of my only child....???

The problem becomes even bigger... when my own partner does not understand what all things are destroying me... even if I explain him... he doesn't want to understand or might be these things are very minor in his eyes.....I feel so helpless at times and start behaving in an undesired manner...

Please help me God to restore my inner strength and beliefs....