Choas in the mind !!

Yes, my mind is currently clouded with confusion, uncertainty, chaos, and turmoil.

And honestly, I can’t pinpoint exactly why.

There’s just so much happening at once—career, health, fitness, kids, parents, siblings... it all feels overwhelming.

Somewhere deep down, I know it stems from my nature—this constant, unconscious urge for perfection in everything I do. Even the slightest deviation unsettles me, and I find it hard to feel truly content. Maybe that’s part of why I come across as humble—not because I want to, but because I often struggle to see my own worth. I’m not trying to compliment myself—it’s just how I am. I genuinely wonder why I can’t think highly of myself and why I’m always finding flaws within.

Sometimes I feel I’m so aware of my weaknesses that I forget my strengths. When things don’t go as planned, I immediately start analyzing, tracing everything back to the root cause (yes, I have this habit of needing to understand “why”). And more often than not, I end up blaming myself—concluding it’s my fault or shortcoming. That’s when the sadness creeps in.

Then, occasionally, someone offers a kind word or praise, and I’m reminded—“Oh, right… I do have some good in me.”

It feels strange to admit all this—even writing it down feels weird. But it’s exactly how I’m feeling right now. If my career isn’t moving forward, I blame myself for not doing enough. If I’m not physically fit, it’s because I’m not putting in the effort. If my kids mess up, I feel like I’ve failed as a mother. If my parents are unhappy, I question myself as a daughter.

I just want to ask—God, please guide me... please help me find peace of mind. 🙏

New Nest, New Vibes!!

A New Chapter Begins at Home 🙂

Though I’ve moved homes before, this time felt different. We’ve shifted to a new house in the same city, but the experience of buying a home together with my spouse was something entirely new and special for me.

It all started with a small thought—a desire to move to a better place. Not that the earlier one was lacking, but sometimes, your heart just knows when it’s time for something more. I didn’t expect it to actually happen… but like I always say, maybe I am God’s favourite sometimes 😄—and it did happen.

From finding the right house and sorting finances (a huge thanks to my better half for handling most of that!), to the chaos of packing, moving, and balancing everyone’s expectations—there were so many moving parts. But somehow, it all came together. With God’s grace, everything went smoothly(at least from where I see it!)

In the first few days at a new place, you're just busy settling in. And slowly, it hits you—a new phase of life has begun. This place is now our home. Sometimes I ask myself—does it matter whose house it technically is (because I learnt it does matter to people)? Mine, my husband’s, my parents’, or my in-laws’? And my heart says no. For me, wherever I choose to stay, wherever I find comfort and peace—that becomes my home. It’s all about the mindset, not just ownership.

Everyone who’s visited has said this home has a lovely, positive vibe—and I feel it too. I truly hope this space brings joy, growth, and peace to us all, especially to my daughters. I pray that God continues to shower His love and blessings on them, just as He has done for me.

And above all, I thank God deeply—for this home, for the people I love, and for the many blessings I never even asked for. Life has its ups and downs, but as long as You’re with me, God, I am content. Material things come and go, but the peace within… that’s what really matters to me.

Thank You, GOD!