Longing for something which will never happen in reality is very tough to deal with.
I believe most of us might have had similar feelings.. but do we really know how to deal with such feelings??
Atleast I don't know...
It is said that when you fail, you should not get disheartened for there is always a next time and you should learn from your failure..
But what if you never get the second chance at all? what if there is no way out for that NEXT time??
We have ONE life and we all want to fulfill our desires in this life.. but how would you feel if your small desires cannot be fulfilled in this life and that too with no fault of yours?
Just because most of us believe that GOD (or any other super natural power you believe in) has better plans for us we should accept what we have got... but do we really believe that what GOD does is always right?? NO, NOW I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS.... and probably will never be able to now...
Don't think I am a pure Atheist since beginning, no I was not and I am not totally an atheist even now.. I was a person who always believed in GOD and was always fantasized by the stories of GOD our religion offers.. Infact, I used to enjoy spreading these stories among different people and somewhere deep in my heart used to feel proud of myself that I know so much about my dear GOD at very young age....but now things have changed... dont know why.. but they certainly have
I am not the same person now which I was or who my parents brought up... No it is not that LIFE has done something bad with me... but obviously there are certain events which happened .. which led to the transformation within myself. I can bear anything for myself... but these days when I just look around myself.. I feel GOOD happens with BAD people and BAD with GOOD ones... may be I am wrong .. but that s what I conclude when I dont have answers to all the 'Why's which come to my mind....
I know nothing is permanent and want this transformation to end soon....because it hurts me deep inside and the pain cannot be put in words....this feeling makes me feel just too low......and I HATE it....
Wherever you(my ex dear GOD) are , please make me believe in you once again....
I believe most of us might have had similar feelings.. but do we really know how to deal with such feelings??
Atleast I don't know...
It is said that when you fail, you should not get disheartened for there is always a next time and you should learn from your failure..
But what if you never get the second chance at all? what if there is no way out for that NEXT time??
We have ONE life and we all want to fulfill our desires in this life.. but how would you feel if your small desires cannot be fulfilled in this life and that too with no fault of yours?
Just because most of us believe that GOD (or any other super natural power you believe in) has better plans for us we should accept what we have got... but do we really believe that what GOD does is always right?? NO, NOW I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS.... and probably will never be able to now...
Don't think I am a pure Atheist since beginning, no I was not and I am not totally an atheist even now.. I was a person who always believed in GOD and was always fantasized by the stories of GOD our religion offers.. Infact, I used to enjoy spreading these stories among different people and somewhere deep in my heart used to feel proud of myself that I know so much about my dear GOD at very young age....but now things have changed... dont know why.. but they certainly have
I am not the same person now which I was or who my parents brought up... No it is not that LIFE has done something bad with me... but obviously there are certain events which happened .. which led to the transformation within myself. I can bear anything for myself... but these days when I just look around myself.. I feel GOOD happens with BAD people and BAD with GOOD ones... may be I am wrong .. but that s what I conclude when I dont have answers to all the 'Why's which come to my mind....
I know nothing is permanent and want this transformation to end soon....because it hurts me deep inside and the pain cannot be put in words....this feeling makes me feel just too low......and I HATE it....
Wherever you(my ex dear GOD) are , please make me believe in you once again....
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