The book called Life

"You can't skip chapters, that's not how life works. You have to read every line, meet every character. You won't enjoy all of it. Hell, some chapters will make you cry for weeks. You will read things you don't want to read, you will have moments which you don't want the pages to end. But you have to keep going. Stories keep the world revolving. Live yours, don't miss out."

Today morning I read these lines on FaceBook, posted by one of my friends....somehow I could relate to these lines ...

Actually, life is crazier than anything I have ever seen in my life... so many turns and twists happen that you forget to keep the track... 

Like when I used to study, the chapters or topics which I used to be least interested in, I would keep them for the end and read only those which I was comfortable in... but with this book called Life... no choices are given... everything is so forceful.. at times... I dont feel like doing some xyz work... but then have to do it.... :(

I dont know how, so many people's life is designed by the Almighty? he/she is super intelligent, diplomatic, manipulative and the best manager so far :)

But why does life force us to deal with things, situations, people we are not comfortable with... why cant we have the choose option in every sphere of life... I know some people would say if we are always in the comfort zone... life will be boring and mundane... but some times it becomes difficult to drag ourselves.... and at that point of time.. you feel like breaking free from all these chores of life.....

Forget all this, you cant even speak your mind when you feel like.. forget doing things of your choice... :(

Whatever, I loved the lines mentioned above and wanted to document it somehow.. so thought of writing this blog :P

Too many 'whys' in the mind??

Whenever I am confused or have too many doubts/questions in my mind.. I suddenly feel like writing something.. just to ease my inner self.... and then I open this blog.....
I think this blog has become my secret partner... who takes in all my weird thoughts without any ifs/buts :P

So today I  am doubting how does the God plan the lives of so many people at a stretch.. well one may say that's the reason he/she is called the supernatural power... which we, humans, cannot really understand... I dont understand but sometimes I feel God is a little unfair with few people without any reason... yes my mind forces me to say "without any reason..."

we, as humans, have got just this one life... and why we just cant live it as per our wishes... small desires, wishes become dependent on others....

I remember I heard some intellectual saying... that we a child is born .. he/she doesnt even know that he is existing in this world now.. and we start forcing all the relations on him/her... like I am your mom/dad/ granddad etc etc... then from that very moment that child gets stuck in the web of these relations....... and then the dependencies starting building without our realization...
No, I am not against relationships... (I have some bful relations in my life...) but we should give each other space, understand each other's desires, help each other in achieving them...

Another imp thing - we should not think always negative about other person's actions instead we should think that whatever the other person is doing is the best he/she can do with all he/she has .... and that could be resources, energy or even the mental level of a person.... as I write this, I realise it is difficult to do than saying... but giving it a try is worth.....

They say praying is important and should part of your daily chores but with my personal experience I have realised... God has already decided the major things of your life and you cannot simply change them even by praying... I have prayed all my life for just one major thing.... and then got the answer... 'I have decided and it will be as I want.. your praying wont help'... :(

It is not that God hasnt been kind to me.. He/She has blessed with a lovely life and overall... I have no complaints for myself.... but at times... I fail to understand the complexity of life... :(

Hopefully, someday will get the answers for all my doubts... and I only wish my closed relations to be happy always... because they deserve to be happy in my eyes :)

Longing for the moments that will never come

Longing for something which will never happen in reality is very tough to deal with.
I believe most of us might have had similar feelings.. but do we really know how to deal with such feelings??
Atleast I don't know...

It is said that when you fail, you should not get disheartened for there is always a next time and you should learn from your failure..

But what if you never get the second chance at all? what if there is no way out for that NEXT time??
We have ONE life and we all want to fulfill our desires in this life.. but how would you feel if your small desires cannot be fulfilled in this life and that too with no fault of yours?

Just because most of us believe that GOD (or any other super natural power you believe in) has better plans for us we should accept what we have got... but do we really believe that what GOD does is always right?? NO, NOW I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS.... and probably will never be able to now...

Don't think I am a pure Atheist since beginning, no I was not and I am not totally an atheist even now.. I was a person who always believed in GOD and was always fantasized by the stories of GOD our religion offers.. Infact, I used to enjoy spreading these stories among different people and somewhere deep in my heart used to feel proud of myself that I know so much about my dear GOD at very young age....but now things have changed... dont know why.. but they certainly have

I am not the same person now which I was or who my parents brought up... No it is not that LIFE has done something bad with me... but obviously there are certain events which happened .. which led to the transformation within myself. I can bear anything for myself... but these days when I just look around myself.. I feel GOOD happens with BAD people and BAD with GOOD ones... may be I am wrong .. but that s what I conclude when I dont have answers to all the 'Why's which come to my mind....

I know nothing is permanent and want this transformation to end soon....because it hurts me deep inside and the pain cannot be put in words....this feeling makes me feel just too low......and I HATE it....

Wherever you(my ex dear GOD) are , please make me believe in you once again....